I did it.  I finally did it.  After five long weeks of staying away from not going to the gym, I finally went for an hour yesterday.  I must say that after I was done I felt a wave of peace wash over me.  This is something I haven't felt in awhile.  I've been so wound tight because of all of the uncertainty surrounding me right now (namely in the money category).  It felt great to work up a tiny sweat and burn some much needed stress.  I had been meaning to go to the gym all week, but found excuses other things to do that I placed much importance on in my mind.  I felt happy as I gazed at all of the exercise equipment.  The ellipticals, exercise bikes, steppers and treadmills all seemed to be smiling at me; inviting me to join in on the fun.  Become one of those, you know, happy sweaty people.  So… I did it.  Yay me!  I plan on going yet again today and hope that I can be just as excited everyday as I was yesterday.

Other things in life are okay.  I refrain from saying "good" because if I acknowledge things are "good", then something bad happens and it dashes away whatever measure of happiness I may have achieved.  Call me superstitious but I don't want to risk it.  I like being here in the "okay" realm.  It feels safe for the moment.